• the intention is to make a little animated video here.
• Then talk about awakenings
  • breif sudden, moments, with a short half lives
    • like standing in a beam of light, that dissipates at half-life rates (Instead of a steady release, think of each passing moment or day the experience cuts in half)
    • what does it feel like? light, warm, clear, connected.
    • Devine inspiration , mystical experiences 
      • Vs psychic 
      • Because it comes through human it’s likely to be distorted. not the source of these awakenings but can be the seed or the spark.
      • Cosmic conciousness – strikes anyone like love. When it hits you you know it. Long practice of spirtual mediation / disciplin. Sometimes no reason at all. Conviction that youve mistaken your identity what I thought is only super ficisla. That I am expression of internal x , name can’t be named for a moment I feel I know exactly why everything is. No boundary of what I do and what happens to me. Breathing does it do it. Or does it happen to you. You feel everything like breathing 
      • Personal, can’t be replicated one person to the next
      • we are on two paths, the knowing that it has happened to us and what that feels like. or are on our way there.
      • Often when we are not actively seeking or knowing the Experience Exists
      • However, there are known practices, tequinues, enviroments that are known to be condusive of these
        • Psychedelic journeys
        • Buddist retreats / practices
        • Zen Poems and Koans
        • tragic suffering
        • heart break
        • pushing pass fear, danger, near death
        • Meditate states of alignment
        • Dreaming, lucid dreaming
        • healing / healing treatment releases
      • Even in these enviroments, the whole point is that you don’t know to what you will be awakened to our exactly how Until it happens
      • we could talk about what awkenings often feel like, but maybe its best for everyone to have their own Experience and Understanding of it.
      • Often a first – time / beginners luck phenominam
        • after the first time we have expectation
      • Forever shift and shape our understanding of Existence, even if it fades to memory or Subconscious Existence
      • Helpful to build integration practices around these moments, to give them more life, purpose and engrainment and also to work with the new self
        • follow the thread….!
        • can lead to an expanision of empathy, clarity. which can also opens you to the polarizing emotions of higher senstivities for grief, and feeling more tapped into collective emotions (energy).
• 1. Awareness is a field, not a product of effort.
• You don’t force it — you tune to it.
• Just like a radio can’t “work harder” to hear a station.
• It must match the frequency.
• 2. Effort creates noise.
• Trying, grasping, forcing = turbulence in the system.
• 3. Presence collapses resistance.
• Surrender creates coherence in your nervous system and energy field.
• 4. Coherence = access.
• This is when:
• Dreaming clicks
• Intuition amplifies
• Synchronicities happen
• Perception shifts
• The “energy body” wakes
• You see the underlayer (the true nature)
• 5. The universe responds to alignment, not force.
• This is why intention (Castaneda’s “intent”) is powerful:
• it aligns your field with the informational structure of reality.
• 6. Insight comes through openings, not effort.
• Moments of higher consciousness often feel “given,” not “achieved.”
• And yet, your practice made you capable of receiving it.
• Just like a flower doesn’t force sunlight —
• it just turns toward it.

But to the main point, the reisstance comes in a pre-congintive knowning that there will be some sort of suffering. and the Self always trys to avoid on coming suffering at all costs. Where does this come from? well when you have any type of experience that is a form of awakening, maybe through a peice of knowledge rrecived or something pychicaly, or psyche experiential, three’s going to be a past you and a new you. That new you need to recone and live with the past you that lived without this knowledge. There will almost always be some level of shame, guilt, or fear from this. Sometiems the reconiging of awakenings can be very immense and intense (a whole lot of grief and pain, and maybe not really an idea of why or where its coming from). and sometimes it can be smaller or simpler. So there is something within us that is ALWAYS threatened by awakeneings. Its only once you start that you realize, these moments are gifts, and to stay open to rcieving them when they come, even if that means there will be some shadow work, grief, shame, or fear to work through.